more oldies...

so many notebooks floating around with lyrics and poems. here's some from a few years back...

I've got to stop killing myself
thought I was thrilling myself
Black Stars in her eyes
I won't let this go
everything else is gone
Where it all went I won't know
I'm so bored with the puppet show







Even on my brightest day
My thoughts drift back to yesterday
to save me from disgrace and keep me from losing face
I could've shut you out if I had believed my own doubt
I put myself down
wore a fixed frown
I led myself astray
I made it that way
I don't blame you anymore for my blindness
as you walked out that door
I try to erase this madness you knowingly instilled in my mind
with the fucked up reasoning I still find
I want to erase my past
If I could I'd do it fast
because you are nothing but a nightmare to me


I numb this pain deep in my heart
So I can't feel it tear apart
I'll never cry such tears again
I don't need anything
anything that I cant bring
I don't want holidays
Don't want the fear I taste
So I spit it out
I fucking scream and shout for more
No, not things you can buy at the store
Fill me up again and again
with the pleasure you call sin
Fill me up ...Fill me up
under the night sky
I'll be alright
I'll fly high

haha i like rhyming