my armor...

I tried to keep a shield up over my heart
I know what dark path love leads me to
I know that no man can love me the way I need to be/want to be loved
I am foolish because I feel
I am stupid because I trust when I know better than to allow myself to be hurt and used again and again.
Maybe my love/soulmate is nothing more than a dream in this life..a memory of another life and love that I cannot manifest in this world.

Only tricks, decievers, illusions show a glimpse of what I so desire in this life
Give me a taste til you take what you want then walk away.
Psychic vampires in disguise of bliss/exstacy come to me to steal my energy, my heart, my mind, my focus, my youth, and beat me down bloody and bruised to leave me where I've already been